Peaceful Cabin Retreat

Most of those who visit my website know I have been battling depression for a while and this year has been particularly hard on me because of numerous things that currently rest on my shoulders and it all feels like a huge anchor dragging me down. I have days where I wonder if the way I feel will become intense enough to where I will just decide I’ve had enough and call it a day?  The mind is a very powerful thing and some days I feel absolutely worthless and think I have not done a single thing that amounts to anything in my life and why bother and then several hours later it seems to relent and I am glad I did not let it get the best of me. For whatever reason a lot of artistic types fight very similar battles to mine and those who have departed strike very close to my heart and I completely understand their decisions. I know I am not alone with these problems and realize many are much worse, so life goes on.

I have no idea why I feel the need to share some of this stuff but this post today reminds me that one of the things that brings me great satisfaction is my photography and being creative but that passion is being overwhelmed by these struggles. The above photo was taken back in July and I now finally found the enthusiasm to share it here so that gives you an idea of where I am at.

The shot was one I saw earlier this particular day when the light was terrible so all I could think about was would the owner let me into the yard to shoot it that evening?  I was completely surprised that the owner was very receptive to letting me take this and offered to turn porch lights on and even dimmed them to the perfect level for me. This log cabin sits right by a creek and is a great place to sit and sip lemonade on hot summer evening or perhaps hot chocolate as we head into fall.

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36 responses to “Peaceful Cabin Retreat

  1. You do not know me personally, but I have been encouraged many days by your post. Before my husband died he also enjoyed this site. We have a special needs daughter who has limited abilities in walking so are not able to go and walk wherever. So you have been eyes for us. ( I was one of the carriers of Shopping News for over 20 years so I recognize your face) When I face discouragement, I find comfort in reading the Bible, Praying–just tell tell Jesus how I feel and ask him to help me. And a walk outside in the yard/garden–I usually find some beauty that I thank Him for. When I need to go to the store, etc., I try to keep a smile on my face especially cause I am a representative of Jesus. A n encouraging word to others helps encourage me. So press on, Many are looking to you and appreciate your life. I will pray for you as the Lord brings you to my mind! Please don’t think I have all the answers, I don’t. But I know the ONE who does! Trust HIM! Sincerely, Barbara Z.

    • Thanks for the encouragement. I have seen the possibilities but this affliction makes it hard. Not sure how much you read here but a while back I mentioned a two week period were my medicine actually transformed me into a new person! I was praying, being thankful, very kind etc etc and then poof it all went away and I have little inclination to do any of the aforementioned things. So I have seen both sides and for both the positive and negative it just was something that came from within so to speak. I can try to be happy all day long but the brain just sends this ominous negativity that overrides things. Not sure where you live or how old your daughter is but you should stop and see My gnome village along the rail trail in Akron sometime.

  2. The fact you shared is a good sign! It would be good to keep a journal because for some writting out your thoughts is a helpful release. May the “burdens” lighten. Sincerely Barbara Z.

  3. My prayers for you today, may you be delivered from the dark place you are in. The gift of photography you have is just awesome . ,Thank you for sharing

  4. Oh Don this is beautiful and so serene. Thank you for sharing not just the photo but also your struggles. You bring such joy to others with your art. I know it brings me joy many times on a dark day. Please know that your not alone and if you ever need to talk I’m near by.

  5. thanks for the beautiful picture. it is truly a beautiful relaxing picture,,Jeff has a log home on the top of the mountain in Reinholds and there is something very peaceful about it too,,just to sit and enjoy the quiet and the trees(which is all you see) and sometimes the deer walking quietly through the mountain,. take care and some days are truly worth the wait,,enjoy your family….R

  6. Good to see you posting again and I especially like the gentle nature of this shot. Nice composition and excellent lighting. And … it’s also good to see you sharing your challenges. It always lightens the load a bit. Feel free to call.

  7. Don,
    I am very proud of you and I know grandpa would be too. If you want I can list all of the things I am proud of you for. When we moved I found among my belongings books that grandpa had and they were all self help books. How he struggled to feel better. How sad it makes me that your medicine doesn’t work better. I consider you a self made man. Love you very much.

  8. Thanks for sharing your wonderful art. While I’m not an artist myself, I do enjoy the art done by others. At the same time I’m aware that artists also deal with depression, as you said. It makes me even more appreciative of the art, realizing that there is often a struggle involved behind the art. Thanks again for sharing.

  9. WOW, absolutely beautiful!! Just know you are appreciated and thank you for sharing your beautiful visions of what seem unexciting to the rest of us. You open our eyes to the beauty around us.

  10. I got some of your beautiful photos at an auction and decorated a friend’s nursing home room with them. They brightened her and the nurses till she passed away this week. I did not really know who you were then but found out I went to school with your dad. My prayers are with you and your family. Darla

  11. I enjoy your photos in the Shopping News. This week’s photo is precious, two little sisters stacking pumpkins. I cut that one out!
    You and Greg Heisey took our wedding pictures in 1996, and we are always surprised that you work for this “little” hometown paper when your photos are SO GOOD! I enjoy checking this page to see new photos.

    I am so sorry to read of your struggles, and I understand because I also struggle with depression, but more anxiety. Been on med. for years. Some days are paralyzing with fear and dread. I’ve found that worship music (LOUD) and declaring the truth is really helpful to me. It shifts my focus onto Jesus.
    May your day look a little brighter with HOPE. Your work is really exceptional!!
    ~Mary

    • Thanks Mary, wish I could go back to 1996. I had panic attacks a long time ago and that was very scary. I remember ordering food at a restaurant and all of a sudden this feeling hit where I felt I had to drive home as fast as I could. Thankfully those days are gone. I miss those days with Greg, he is the calmest person I have ever known, about the total opposite of me.

  12. Hey Donald,
    We spoke briefly by email last year as I was inquiring about where you had taken a sunflower shot I had seen in the Shopping News. I have only been in Ephrata a little over a year and you and I have never met. It’s been a while since I checked out your work and decided to find your website today and see what I’ve been missing. Then I your read words above and was so moved. Please reach out to me if you ever need to “just talk to someone.” I am not a trained professional but am a good listener. We live very close to each other as I am near the Ephrata Middle School. Stay strong and take care of your creative self. The community needs you!
    Joe Hengel

    • thanks Joe. I am not much of a talker really but I appreciate your message. I have not gone out shooting in like three months and I think it is the medicine I am on. It helps with the depression but also subdues a lot of other aspects I have noticed. I was having daily thoughts of departing for a month or so and thankfully the meds have helped ease that symptom. thanks for stopping by here.

      • Then get out! How can you pass up all of these beautiful clouds we have been having recently? I’m going out now for a little while.

        It sounds like you are on a better path now….thankfully!

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